My first Painting

my first painting :) .. accidentally happened today when i was with my nephew and niece. took out their water colors and started painting.. came out pretty well i should say :)

Escapist at Heart

“Tommorow is a mystery, yesterday is history, today is a gift or some shit”

“Chal daa , am fuckin bored today lets go to a pub and have some fun” calls up my friend on a weekend.

“Life has become wholesale shit market daa .. fuck….managers, customers , deadlines ,nonsense females , life is totally fucked up .. I wanna booze now …chal “ says another.

What happened to all the fundas we listen , read day in day out on radio, tv, internet that boozing is bad for health, try to live in the present, today is a gift etc etc…don’t we know all these shit .. but still why do we turn deaf ears to all these and keep doing the same old stuff??

This is because all of us are escapist at heart. We live in our own fantasy world or want to live in a dream.we want to escape from all our problems and be happy, serene, satisfied. We go to movies and relax ourselves for 2 hours, go on a vacation, booze.. Am not advocating that all these are wrong but just illustrating plain facts.

We spend all our day thinking about the future and forget the present. We want our life to be as smooth as possible. As smooth as a black label whisky :)
When we are hit with a roadblock in any problem we just don’t wanna face it, instead go behind all these stuffs that make u relaxed, feel happy. But the fact is that these are just temporary doses of enjoyment, once ur body is immunized to these pleasures it requires more dosage to make u feel excited. So these pleasures eventually become habits and then turn into addiction.
Once ur addicted to the “so called “ pleasures.. these dictates terms and u loose urself, screw up ur life all together.

These are not our faults but it’s in our genes to escape from problems, even the religions talk about past life, next life etc. which is a extrapolation of the escapist attitude in us. Because we think the next life is going to be exciting we forget to live our present life.

Just remember that we have just ONE LIFE, only one. u accept it or not… u just have one.instead of cribbing about the problems and trying to escape from it . start facing the problems head on.

U know.. Facing problems are fun, its like a little inertia we have in us before we jump into the swimming pool, if u come out of it and jump in, its fun. :)

Fixing problems and taking the responsibilities are more exciting then we think . Remember the most exciting and satisfying moments of ur life.. Am sure almost 95% of it would be the ones in which u have worked hard, solved something difficult.

The more consious we are, the more happy we are.. the more happy we are ,the more happy are our loved ones.

So lets throw away this escapist from our heart, become a realist and njoy this small but precious gift called LIFE……….

The Parting Shot

Sometimes it’s hard to say goodbye but sometimes its best to say goodbye.

“Hey, its me. How are u?” Said the voice from the other side. This was not a stranger’s voice but a voice, which till that point, was embedded in his brains, in his genes, a voice that had become a part of his life.

“Oh yaa, I am fine thanks. Hope ur doing good too” was his response. There was huge pause … sometimes even silence communicates …there was nothing more to discuss, nothing more to ask, none to share.
The conversion ended.

“This relationship needs a better farewell “ was his immediate thought, after all even the worst things in life deserves a decent send-off.

“R u game for lunch on Monday” sms sent to her. “ Yeah am game” was the response.

So the time had come to get ready for the parting shot. The most difficult thing in life is to see a relationship end, that too right in front of the eyes!!

He was at his wittiest best, teasing, talking, having fun with her but on the inside he was crying, sense of loosing the prettiest thing he has ever seen or felt in life. But as they say, “all good things have to come to a end “, this one was at a juncture where it was best for both of them to move apart.

“What a beautiful pair of eyes” he told to himself, this is the closest he can ever see her in his life. His mood was torn apart from happiness and sorrow. She was in her office formals, behaving formally…. gosh…. “How can girls be so crasy and so heartless “ he thought.

Her every word was a stab inside his chest, her every smile was a blow to his heart.

She talked as thought nothing as ever happened betweeen them and he behaived likewise. This parting shot was required so that it makes her realise her fault, her shortcomings, and her attitude. This shot was required so that he wouldn’t waste day and night thinking about her.
Lunch was over and it was time to say goodbye. Mind was thinking in its own terms, heart not in control, he said “GOOD BYE”.

This was not the end but the beginning of new life, new hopes, and new destinations…

Fade to Black

What will happen once I die? Where will I go? What happens to me? Why does it happen to me ? Am I helpless to escape this monster .All this thoughts came into me at one shot which scared a shit off me and I woke up to realise that am still alive on a Monday morning.

Then came a more mature thought, am I the only one facing these tough Questions of life, if this one scares me ( a spiritualist) to the core what would be the state of mere mortals.

I tried to give Death a meaning it deserves. It’s like Rahul Dravid of Indian cricket team, which doesn’t even get the credit it deserves. Death is required to run this great team of universal cosmosis.

“Death” is a state like Birth. It’s the only truth of life. Anyone not knowing his future knows that he going to die one day. But we are so INTELLIGENT that we think we are ever lasting and ever living special being of this nature.

Death means change. Death is beautiful if embrassed properly. This sense of death teaches us the new meaning of life.how precious is our stay in here to realise, to enjoy, to give and to learn.

It’s the power that cleans our nature and keeps its fresh, removing the weeds, the old, the species that has lost its war to survive.

It paves the way for new, refreshing ideas to flow in and rejuvinates this beautiful lady called nature.

You might be thinking all is fine but what happens to me , my state , my behaivour.let me ask u simple question what happens to file which u have created after its gets deleted.does it go out of the file system..?? nop.. it stays but its not visible, its space gets freed to accomodate another file. We are also files in this great universe of file system, we get recycled every now and then.

Knowing the meaning of death teaches the value of life.

Knowing the other person is going to die someday will create more campassion in you.

Death teaches you humanity.

Instead of you living ur life like a F1 race, you will lead it as a journey in which u’ll have no burden to carry, no destination to reach but a sweet voyage to cover and experience

Death teaches you to live.

This knowledge of death will free us from the fear of little things, petty fights, hatred, jealously, strain, and stress.

Is there fun if there are no deadlines? is there excitement without climax ?? is there contentment without the end in a story?

Lets not worry about death and loose this precious moment of life. Lets keep in mind that we will die one day and should start living now. Lets be more humble, be more humane.

Ur attitude, skills,intelligence ,hopes, ignorance everthing vanishes before this one

BECAUSE ONE DAY WE ALL WILL FADE TO BLACK….