Junoon - the Obsession

There were two related experiences this week , that lead me to write this blog.

While watching the first match of IPL between Royal chalengers Bangalore and Knight Riders Kolkata , I somehow found myself supporting Bangalore. I was critising any shot played by the kolkata players and praising the bangalore boys for no reason.
The player whom I used to admire the most Sourav ganguly suddenly was on the opposite side and I wanted him to get out .
I was obsessed with Bangalore and felt crasily mad when they hopelessly lost the match.

Is that bcoz Bangalore lost .. nop.. its bcoz the “I” lost , my ego lost…

Other day I went for a movie called “U me aur hum” , ajay devgan the protagonist says that our body works in “ self defense mechanism” which means that our ego or the so called “I” will drive you in crunch situations no matter what you think.
This says that when mother is drowning with her child , she will try to save her child till the nth moment. But in the end she will try to save herself by drowning the child.

What I meant here is to say that every part of us is selfish. We are all obsessed with ourselves. But we portray the picture that we are selfless, nature friendly, compassinate.

Assume the case where ur hand is poisoned and have to ampute it to save u from dying, you will do it since we are by nature selfish!!!!!

So why should we act saying that we are saints , gods, etc. etc..
I think all these words are bullshit… period.

It would be better to accept that we are animals and start living a truthful life , lets break this duality we have in us, lets show our true self to the world , atleast we would be one with the nature and not hopelessly out of it.

So its ok to be selfish, self centered.. bcoz that’s the way we have been designed, let the nature take control , let us not dictate terms to the nature by saying that we are the most precious species of this planet..

Lets accept this fact … half of our problem will be fixed, half of the solution will be known.
Lets accept that we are afterall animals and we are shamelessly obsessed with ourselves.

Surprise Surprise!

“Hey , Am getting married .. “ She said.

“That’s amazing , when is the marriage?” he asked.

“ We havent decided on the date , will inform you once confirmed , please try to make it for the marriage” she replied.

He was very happy to hear this, or was he? After all he heared all this from somone who he had loved .. not to be mistaken it was not the other way round.

His Memories went back to those days when she was the Queen of his hearts.

Her first day in the company,“Hats off to the creator, she is a absolute beauty, oh man!! is this first love!!!” “ he thought .
She was too beautiful, too delicate, but yet so strong from within.
She seem to have so many flaws but she was looked determined to face the odds.

He was never behind any girl till that point , but this was the moment , some asshole had talked about first love and all nonsense, but he never belived in it. but now its happening , he was falling in love with the girl he is seeing for the first time in his life.

Then lots of thoughts came rushing by to his head.. “how do I approach, how do I talk to her, how do I impress her, how do I show myself as special to her” questions hovered in his head.

She was put in to a different project, the task got much tougher for him.
But he was determined to impress her, he made use of very minute chance to talk to her, to make her laugh. after all the hardwork they became good friends … one day god Shovered his bliss and she was in his project.. he was over the moon, dreaming about her in the night, chatting with her in office hours.

All good things comes to a end, or atleast thats wat the fucker called fate had in store for him. One fine day he saw her talking to someone else , his heart broke or did it ?? after all ….all the one sided affairs should end in only one way……...

He moved away from her life from that point and never wanted to bother her.. infact he didn’t even want to know that he loved her.

But God had different plans. she moved to the same company as his but this time she was nursing her heart .he became her good friend again.. this time a real friend who wanted to see her happy without any selfish cause. She regained herself and he was happy.

He regained back his consious from the memories.

It was the valentines day.. and he got a special gift on his mailbox ……”her Marriage invitation. “

The Model in Me.